There are these times in every endeavor, when it feels like you’ve hit the snag. It feels like it’s the end and that endeavor is now a waste of time. Over the past few weeks, I’ve lost interest in this blog and have failed to post anything relevant. Oh well, that ends now!
From now on, I’ve decided to become more dedicated to each aspect of my life; the ones I’ve always been good at and also the ones which I’m really bad at. Want an example? Well, I think I’m really good at Maths and I love it, but I’m also really bad at maintaining my faith that I’m good at Maths. It’s this tug of war between these two contrasting traits which pretty much sums up what it’s like to be me.
There are these times, I guess everyone has felt this themselves, when you feel like nothing could go wrong. Your success has been proven, you’re on the pinnacle of success, and you’re also enjoying a spell of great morale! Over-confidence is lurking at the next corner, and once that corner has been breached, you end up in an uncontrolled free fall in terms of losing self-confidence.
That’s how I’ve felt over the past month or so. Every question you can’t solve, every problem you face and every negative encounter with someone hits you hard. Perhaps this is called overestimation of ability; or maybe it’s called useless self-damning. It’s really really hard to separate these two character traits. It’s nigh impossible to come to a decision yourself.
Then what do you do? Turn to others? Even that has drawbacks. Everyone has a certain bias towards you, either negative or positive. There’s always a little bit of emotion that hinders a human from making a decision out of pure logic. Ah, how humanity would prosper if we were all like Vulcans! No emotional bias, no overconfidence of abilities. But I’ve been told by a wise man that even dreaming and hoping for impossible things and dreams is a waste not only of time, but also of the incredible wealth that the mind possesses.
In the end I come up with the conclusion that it is best if you yourself know what you’re like, what you’re after and what you want to do. Even your own opinions about yourself can be very misleading. To overcome this requires a touch of humility as well as a touch of pride. The balance between these emotions is the key.
Perhaps this entire article was meaningless; perhaps it was a waste of time and an insult to human memory. All of this is up to you to decide; for me, it was a moment of relief. Just like what this pictures offers me when I stare at it.
From now on, I’ve decided to become more dedicated to each aspect of my life; the ones I’ve always been good at and also the ones which I’m really bad at. Want an example? Well, I think I’m really good at Maths and I love it, but I’m also really bad at maintaining my faith that I’m good at Maths. It’s this tug of war between these two contrasting traits which pretty much sums up what it’s like to be me.
There are these times, I guess everyone has felt this themselves, when you feel like nothing could go wrong. Your success has been proven, you’re on the pinnacle of success, and you’re also enjoying a spell of great morale! Over-confidence is lurking at the next corner, and once that corner has been breached, you end up in an uncontrolled free fall in terms of losing self-confidence.
That’s how I’ve felt over the past month or so. Every question you can’t solve, every problem you face and every negative encounter with someone hits you hard. Perhaps this is called overestimation of ability; or maybe it’s called useless self-damning. It’s really really hard to separate these two character traits. It’s nigh impossible to come to a decision yourself.
Then what do you do? Turn to others? Even that has drawbacks. Everyone has a certain bias towards you, either negative or positive. There’s always a little bit of emotion that hinders a human from making a decision out of pure logic. Ah, how humanity would prosper if we were all like Vulcans! No emotional bias, no overconfidence of abilities. But I’ve been told by a wise man that even dreaming and hoping for impossible things and dreams is a waste not only of time, but also of the incredible wealth that the mind possesses.
In the end I come up with the conclusion that it is best if you yourself know what you’re like, what you’re after and what you want to do. Even your own opinions about yourself can be very misleading. To overcome this requires a touch of humility as well as a touch of pride. The balance between these emotions is the key.
Perhaps this entire article was meaningless; perhaps it was a waste of time and an insult to human memory. All of this is up to you to decide; for me, it was a moment of relief. Just like what this pictures offers me when I stare at it. 
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